Step Back Doors Closing – Or Are They Opening? by Louise Malbon-Reddix

Louise Malbon-Reddix

“Some kind of fix I have myself into this time!” I thought.  I was having to take the bus and the train for a few days.  Highly unusual for me!   I am so used to driving everywhere I go. It was so much to get used to again.  Now I would have to be really cognizant of time and all of that. And wouldn’t you know it, I missed the first bus! Someone or something must have had me in their favor, though, as I was still able to arrive at my destination on time.

Like most rail systems, safety is the number one concern for The Washington, D.C. Metrorail System. It has a warning system for when the doors are about to close.  This female voice bellows out, “Step Back, Doors Closing” just as the doors are closing. A friendly greeting; yet stern.

Hearing that for the first time in many years, my mind raced to a different place. “Step forward, Doors Opening!” was my immediate thought. Life is full of opening doors.

Which is why I long for the events that happened during a March of  Dimes walk in the early ‘70’s to happen now.  20 miles is very long, especially so if you haven’t prepared for it.  At the moment, I had all but completed it, but I couldn’t walk one step more.  I took refuge in a multi-level garage that the walk passed by pretty close to my home, so that I could rub my aching feet.  To my surprise a lovely young gentleman sat down with me.  He acknowledged that the walk was a bit much and asked could he sit beside me. He did! And to my surprise, I soon began to feel the warmth of his body close to my own sitting there on the edge of that concrete parking space. The wind picked up and the gentleman in him came out even more as he untied the sweatshirt that was on his waist and wrapped us both in it. That instant, I looked into his eyes, and to my surprise he returned the gaze. I managed to say thank you, and he then hugged me. I believe I fell in love that moment. I have no idea how long we sat there together.  We could see the walkers walking by.  I told him I could not finish the walk, as my feet were still hurting, although much better from not walking on them and from being embraced by the kindest gentleman on earth. Soon there was just a small trickle of walkers going by and he said he had to finish the walk. I asked him not to leave me, but he insisted he had to finish the walk. I broke every rule of etiquette there was.  I asked him; yes I asked him, would I see him again. I didn’t care at this point that we were not the same. He was a beautiful soul, and I was prepared to move heaven and earth to be with him.

I pointed out to him where I lived. He said yes, he would come back after the walk. He would go home and shower, but would return.  To this day I haven’t seen him. And there is still a hole in my heart, and a sign that says; “Reserved For My Angel of Love.” If only today were yesterday as for sure, now, it would be okay for us to be together despite being of different races; “Step forward, Doors Opening!”

In the words of that great poet, Maya Angelou; “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside of you.”  I have published two books now. One self published, Caring Enough to Change and another, Stand In Your Anointment–This Too Shall Pass, through a Publisher. And I want to encourage everyone out there to do the same! Take another look at publishing now, as there are many ways in which you can do that.  Traditional Publishing is still there, where you’ll need an agent and the like. Also know that Self Publishing, too, is a way to get that book inside of you out. So start writing! “Step forward, Doors Opening!”

Louise Malbon-Reddix is an inspirational speaker, author of  “Stand In Your Anointment – This Too Shall Pass” and Coach and Trainer of Neurolinguistic Programming – the Study of Human Excellence!

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45 thoughts on “Step Back Doors Closing – Or Are They Opening? by Louise Malbon-Reddix

    1. Lucind Hill

      This is very helpful and came at a very good time. I was just chatting with another author today. We found out that we both used the same publishing company. She opened my eyes to a cheaper package that they offer. I’m still not able to publish my second book right now, but at least I know I don’t need quite as much money as I thought I did. And then I read this! Is someone telling me something? 🙂 Thank you!

  1. Ida Jones

    I love this story. It remain me of the younger day in my life. You are a beautiful person in heart and soul. You just keep giving encouraging words to us all.

  2. Martha Love

    Louise, I do also love your motto “Step Forward!” and becoming an author is certainly a way for people to do just that!

    Your style of memoir writing is so easy to read, I just fell into it and wanted it to keep going. Looking forward to reading your books.

  3. Linda hales

    Louise – what a refreshing and optimistic outlook on life. I’m not convinced that the door of long ago has closed. He may reappear the next time you stop to take a rest. Or, he served his purpose in your life. I prefer to call him an Angel who taught you what to expect in a relationship and to settle for nothing less. I know that is exactly what you did.

    1. Louise Malbon-Reddix

      Linda, you made my heart burn with that one, where should I stop to rest, that he will be there. Such a lovely soul!! Then you made me cry, as sometimes that is true, they come and serve their purpose, and leave!!! Dear Me, excuse me for now I need a tissue. Thanks though for the comment!!!!

  4. Jake Elliot

    It is very interesting how far we’ve come as a society in forty years. I was born as the war in Vietnam was coming to a close, so desegregation had already happened. The law was established, it wasn’t something I had to learn, I was born in a time of equal rights. It is interesting to see that same fight being fought for the gays now in this new century when at the beginning of the last century it was women fighting for their rights.

    Now, if we could just figure out how to educate the bigots who remain…

    1. Louise Malbon-Reddix

      Jake, Thank You for that peek into your life!!! And you show that you were born in that time by your total acceptance of all!! You are a beautiful soul. I am with you, and perhaps this is how we will get the bigots to listen, by showing them our compassion and love for others!!! Louise

  5. Cherrye S. Vasquez

    Oh my, Louise. I wanted to read more. What a way to “hook” a reader in! This story did that for me.

    I felt drawn into the story with so much emotion inside. What a beautiful moment. What a sweet kind soul.

    I wonder what ever happened to him? I wonder if you took that challenging walk again, would he attempt to find you? I just wondering….


  6. Mary Rodriguez

    Louise, thank you for inviting me to read this. It was very inspirational to me. I have often thought of trying my hand at writing, Maybe there’s still hope for me after all! LOL Hugs!!

  7. Pastor Tawanda Smith

    It may appear that the doors have closed, but they have not. God is ending that particular assignment and has another waiting for you.

    As you move on reflect on the positive experiences. Examine how you’ve grown as an individual. Use what you’ve learned for continued growth and to bless others.

    Pastor Tawanda

  8. Anne Sweazy-Kulju

    I loved that story, Louise. Wow, your writing is so light-touch, it just flows so smoothly, and your optimism is incredibly motivating. You must be a marvelous speaker, too! Checking to make certain your books are on my GoodReads “To Read” shelf!

  9. Carolyn Williams

    Hi cuz, I like the little incident that had occurred, I think that was an Angel that gave u courage to talk to this man, he will come again, so don’t worry. I like what u did, u tried, u did not give up, even though, ur feet were hurting, u still made it, I congratulate u for trying and h met someone. May. GOD continued to blessed u for all the hard work u completed. Luv cuz.

  10. Sharla

    Louise, what a beautiful story! To have known even that few moments of warmth, peace and yes, love is far better than to have never experienced the moment. There are many stories much like your own, some told, others still untold waiting for just the right time to be brought forward into the light. Your encouragement to others is priceless!

  11. Natasha


    You are such an inspiration. I told you once, I just love listening to you speak, you are so enticing. As I read you stories, I could hear you voice and fell immediately captivated. You are a woman of great strengths and power, may your message transcend borders, above and beyond the human soul. Blessings.

  12. Micki Peluso

    Louise, what a lovely story. Like the others, I fell right into it and didn’t want it to end. You are a gifted story teller and I can see this as a book. I felt like crying too when you found, possibly your soul mate and then lost him. Perhaps he was an angel unaware, but whoever he was he set your life on a course of helping others in your ministry. That may have be what is ‘your true love’–serving God in so many ways.

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  14. Bryan Murphy

    It would be so easy to present this episode as a heart-wrenching story of love and betrayal, yet you have focused on the positive aspects of it. No wonder you are in demand as an inspirational speaker, Louise!


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